Reflecting on "The Cycle"

This is a note that I wrote on Facebook on March 29,2009.   These words fit how I feel today.  There is only one word I would add to this montage in several places is the word WAITING.  I feel like I am always waiting.  Waiting on  something or someone.  The silence of waiting is sometimes unbearable.  But I am reminded in Isaiah 40:31 (AMP) it says, " But those who wait for the Lord [who expect, look for, and hope in Him] shall change and renew their strength and power; they shall lift their wings and mount up [close to God] as eagles [mount up to the sun]; they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint or become tired.


"Go to God, check myself
Pray
Spend time in the word
Rest in God
Seek Him daily for direction and answers
Am betrayed
Have to fire people
Correct people
Raise money
Spend money
Other’s expectations
My expectations
Staff issues
Board issues
People offended left and right
Problems of others…everything from children issues, addictions to suicidal thoughts and tendencies
Calls all day long
Meetings all day long
People dropping in
Thanking God always
Remaining faithful in spite of what you see and definitely in spite of what other’s see
Believing God when others can’t or won’t
Answering for what you can’t control
Criticized and laughed at
Mocked
Lied to
Not being able to focus at times
Time flying by seems like you never get anything done
Growing Big and it’s out of your control because God is doing it…
No answers.
People arguing with you
Questioning your faith
Questioning your words and their intent
It’s all so stupid
Drama, day in and day out
Why can’t people just get along?
Egos
Pride
Spirituality
Having a form of godliness but denying the power
No one wants to take responsibility for their choices
And they don’t want to make decisions, they want you to decide
Fear
Doubt
Go to God, check myself
Pray
Spend time in the word
Rest in God
Seek Him daily for direction and answers
Then it starts all over again.
Just want some relief…
I know that this note is a little weird, but I have had one day this year with no drama. One day.
I think I need a hug."